I gave up too much.
For a thousand time I said.
But still, something stopping me to do so.
I am once a great person, and also a fool.
Even if I'm awesome now, fate doesn't change.
I meet mean people, very much.
People that stab me from the back,
untie my shoelace so I slow down.
I did not try, I never.
Try on Life, like literally.
I never, go forward.
Until I realized, I'm on the back.
This is a true story.
Never slow yourself down,
don't find reason to step down.
I doubted, I chosen, I regretted, for what I did.
But,
To make some occasion better,
I replaced the words, 'If Only'
To 'Next Time'.
Chances are given,
I have another chance to try on,
Why should I not?
It's better for everyone,
Every time when I tells somebody about my problem,
They told me that I'm good enough,
But yet, I wasn't trying my best.
I have to opportunity to RETRY, to REMATCH
Myself.
Mom, Dad.
Sometimes I just want SOMEONE to stress me, not SOMETHING.
Maybe that arrow didn't get to my knee.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Chinese New Year
Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese fellows!
Just brought a new MacBook, so now trying on the webcam.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Page 2 of 366
First post for the year 2012 eh?
Sorry I have been to Tumblr for the past months, because I have more privacy over there? Nah...
It's been a boring year, 2011 I mean.
Today, I woke up earlier just to have breakfast with my dad, Bah Kut Teh.
10am, I received missed call, a lot. Reminds me that Kuan Yee told me she's coming my place today. I call Lu Yee straight ahead, because she miss called me. Then after that, I msg Kuan Yee. She did call me back just to tell me that she still has a few house work to do before coming out. So wait shall I.
About 1pm, I'm still messing around, then phone ranged. Kuan Yee was standing outside my front door. (Oh and guess what, my position now, toilet.) and of course my mom picked up the phone. -Sigh- what a waste of credit, I just wave at her and hung up the phone without saying Hi.
Before I open my front door, my dad girly-yelled at me, he wasn't wearing anything on top. haha... So I brought him some time.
Kuan Yee sudden visit was on my expectation, because my brothers have been asking me since morning, whether she coming today or not. Well those are ON my expectation also, because on 31 Dec 2011, she came my house, and we had a lot of fun, so my brother ask her to come more often. They like her because she's also an Otaku, a gamer and a gundam merchant collector. My brothers has been searching for Otaku all around them, and hardly get one who also collect gundam. But I guess they also might like Iu Xiuan.
And so, they play Dead Island and Crysis 2, my brother even ask Kuan Yee to stop playing Left 4 Dead 2 just because its outdated.
Awhile after that, my mom ask her to have lunch because she haven't yet eat. Some Mandarin Medicine soup and Vege, meanwhile my dad have her to try his latest invention hhahaha... something to do with White Carrot, well now someone knows how to appreciate his invention. Japanese Meiju and coffee milk that we used to have when we have milk in the refrigerator. And then my dad's another invention, the something something garlic. Also my mom's garlic bread. She said she ate too much, but there's never enough for good food. We went to Harbour Place for awhile because I wanna get some grocery and when we came back home, the time flies, 6pm already. She packed her things up to get ready, my mom ask her to stay for dinner. Oh yea, the Bah Kut Teh hahahaha!! My dad cooked Bah Kut Teh before going out, home-cooked. So she stay for dinner and then go back home on 6:45pm.
Its been fun having her at our place, don't know how to explain but she's probably the most permanant friend I ever had. 5 years already. But still, I love all my friends.
Sorry I have been to Tumblr for the past months, because I have more privacy over there? Nah...
It's been a boring year, 2011 I mean.
Today, I woke up earlier just to have breakfast with my dad, Bah Kut Teh.
10am, I received missed call, a lot. Reminds me that Kuan Yee told me she's coming my place today. I call Lu Yee straight ahead, because she miss called me. Then after that, I msg Kuan Yee. She did call me back just to tell me that she still has a few house work to do before coming out. So wait shall I.
About 1pm, I'm still messing around, then phone ranged. Kuan Yee was standing outside my front door. (Oh and guess what, my position now, toilet.) and of course my mom picked up the phone. -Sigh- what a waste of credit, I just wave at her and hung up the phone without saying Hi.
Before I open my front door, my dad girly-yelled at me, he wasn't wearing anything on top. haha... So I brought him some time.
Kuan Yee sudden visit was on my expectation, because my brothers have been asking me since morning, whether she coming today or not. Well those are ON my expectation also, because on 31 Dec 2011, she came my house, and we had a lot of fun, so my brother ask her to come more often. They like her because she's also an Otaku, a gamer and a gundam merchant collector. My brothers has been searching for Otaku all around them, and hardly get one who also collect gundam. But I guess they also might like Iu Xiuan.
And so, they play Dead Island and Crysis 2, my brother even ask Kuan Yee to stop playing Left 4 Dead 2 just because its outdated.
Awhile after that, my mom ask her to have lunch because she haven't yet eat. Some Mandarin Medicine soup and Vege, meanwhile my dad have her to try his latest invention hhahaha... something to do with White Carrot, well now someone knows how to appreciate his invention. Japanese Meiju and coffee milk that we used to have when we have milk in the refrigerator. And then my dad's another invention, the something something garlic. Also my mom's garlic bread. She said she ate too much, but there's never enough for good food. We went to Harbour Place for awhile because I wanna get some grocery and when we came back home, the time flies, 6pm already. She packed her things up to get ready, my mom ask her to stay for dinner. Oh yea, the Bah Kut Teh hahahaha!! My dad cooked Bah Kut Teh before going out, home-cooked. So she stay for dinner and then go back home on 6:45pm.
Its been fun having her at our place, don't know how to explain but she's probably the most permanant friend I ever had. 5 years already. But still, I love all my friends.
Friday, October 14, 2011
2nd time since we all met.
Sometime I see other friends post pictures in their facebook showing which place they visit with friend at this time, Jealousy really came upon me, but I wasn't afraid that I did not had the chance. We had missed the chance going to Singapore Universal Studio last year, 2 weeks right before our SPM test.
I wasn't really sad for that, I decided to get my chances, my dad always ask me why didn't I organize a trip with my friends to other country instead of just going the same place over and over again. Actually, that makes point, but I don't think they have enough time for that.
Thus, we didn't really hanging out this year, except for my buddies of course. Other friends, phew! They don't even cares about it. Last week, finally YY organized a meet up, which all of us were invited, I didn't saw Siew Yen on the list so I think he probably knew what he's doing which it did not bother me. I declined, don't think I'm harsh, I really can't make it, I got tuition and all this stuff to do on Saturday. Few days before the event, Luyee told me YY got the date wrong, it supposed to be Sunday, I was like, what thee f...? I'm sorry, I got myself full scheduled that day. I feel bad for not going then she told me he did not go either, maybe because just a few person going. So then, Lu Yee organised a gathering to makeup the event which YY created. A Barbeque party.
We talk about it for awhile, Lu Yee and I. It was actually her sister's birthday party, but her sister ask her to invite her friends too, well I think some that attended Lu Yee's birthday party last year won't mind going because they already meet them. Today Lu Yee got furious about the attendance and ask YY to make up his mind now. They got the EPIC LOOP conversation ever.
I wasn't really sad for that, I decided to get my chances, my dad always ask me why didn't I organize a trip with my friends to other country instead of just going the same place over and over again. Actually, that makes point, but I don't think they have enough time for that.
Thus, we didn't really hanging out this year, except for my buddies of course. Other friends, phew! They don't even cares about it. Last week, finally YY organized a meet up, which all of us were invited, I didn't saw Siew Yen on the list so I think he probably knew what he's doing which it did not bother me. I declined, don't think I'm harsh, I really can't make it, I got tuition and all this stuff to do on Saturday. Few days before the event, Luyee told me YY got the date wrong, it supposed to be Sunday, I was like, what thee f...? I'm sorry, I got myself full scheduled that day. I feel bad for not going then she told me he did not go either, maybe because just a few person going. So then, Lu Yee organised a gathering to makeup the event which YY created. A Barbeque party.
We talk about it for awhile, Lu Yee and I. It was actually her sister's birthday party, but her sister ask her to invite her friends too, well I think some that attended Lu Yee's birthday party last year won't mind going because they already meet them. Today Lu Yee got furious about the attendance and ask YY to make up his mind now. They got the EPIC LOOP conversation ever.
I laughed for awhile and decided to post it. XD
For some reason, I really hope that Wei Keong will attend this event, so I called Lu Yee to ask him whether he want or not, its his decision so I'm not giving any comment.
Well, At least I've tried.
Friday, October 7, 2011
I got my first customer.
I have been working Unifi for 2 days and I didn't expect I will get a customer on call. Today, suprisingly one customer call me and ask for information, then I called Jimmy to call her, he said he got her and she will come to sign tomorrow, even though I will not be there while she signing, I ask Jimmy whether I can get the commission, he told me that the whole commission will be mine. Hey, RM149 isn't a small number though. XD
Monday, September 5, 2011
偶然、必然？
My first Aunt raise 2 children, a son and a daughter, Brian and Yuuko, 22 years old and 17 years old respectively. They're quite a humour sibling.
Yuuko has a boyfriend we nicknamed YaoYao, they have been together like 3 years already, but last month when I wanted to greet a Happy Birthday to my cousin Yuuko, I realised they are no more in relationship, on facebook. And weeks later they are no more friend, on facebook. Few days after they broke up, cousin Brian got a new girlfriend. I was like WTF?!
I was thinking, is he bored to my cousin already? My cousin once told me he's not good enough for her, but then months later she told me again that they are fated to be partner, she wanted to marry him after graduate, I was like you're kidding right? I can see that he's not good at all, he gamble, he smoke and he drink, what more? He's personality already over my bounderies, but then I realised Love puzzled peoples' eyes. On my condition, he is out from the list far far away, I tried so hard asking my cousin to think twicely, but she just can't let go him.
She given too much for him, he will not dare to face me if he meet me somewhere someday, just saying. Well I checked my cousin blog too, she deleted all the post which talks about them, replaced only one post. A new month, I can still survive without him. I'm glad and sad at the same time. I'm happy that she grew up a bit, but I'm just worried, is she given up already? I doubted. D=
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Confident.
Confidence, what is confidence? You need confidence in your everyday. Just skim on my article if its boring, hey its the first that I blog in this type of composition so shut up. =P
I salute people that borned confidence, under my not-too-low investigation, they are practically exist. People need confidence to face their future and they have to conquer their fear. In the annals of my life, I have never tend to conquer my fears.
And then one day when I'm surfing on YouTube, I found out the video bubz just posted, What does Confidence mean to you? If you think about it, Confidence is important. You need confidence to do well in a work interview, you need confidence to meet new people, you need confidence to perform your highest potential in anything you do. And I know that everyone has their self conscious on how well they perform themselves in life or what other people around thinks about you. As for that, I think you will just have to ignore what people thinks about you, like saying you're not beautiful enough, your clothes ain't presentable enough or something. That were their thoughts, I would considered they are using words to influence me just because THEY don't have enough confidence, I fear when I heard them saying. I met peoples like this, they like to talk about thing that irrelevant with what I'm doing to reckless my mind, but I don't understand why they just can't see things more optimistic. They should have review the failure themselves.
In the video, she apocalypse that there are some quick methods on how to be confidence but as well they are not permanent. You can give yourself a makeover, wear nice clothes and improve your posture. They will all help to make you FEEL confident but only to a certain extent.
She was like decimate the negative thoughts in our mind, well in my circumstances, she does in the distinctive way, though she gives a lot of beauty tutorial but she always mention about how perfect was her imperfection, well that's the origin of her confidence, probably.
Some commentary mention that because she's beautiful enough, I think that she's the mentor who gives revelation for everyone to becoming more beautiful, but those imposter just trying to evolve controversy. She also having another comedy channel, I'm sure she's a spacious and well-lit everyday girl. I'm gaily that I subscribed her. =D I think that's the reason she has not much obstruction among her,its because she neglect her imperfection. She has enlightened me, I no need a divine to foresee my future.
"Being Confident will take time because it just doesn't happen over night. Some think that in order to be confident, you must be successful in some type of field (appearance, career, education, talent etc) first. Is this really true? Nope. I don't think anybody can FULLY be confident in everything in life. This is because we are going to be in difficult situations throughout life. However, being able to overcome them is what strengthens us."
Despite how people thinks of you, trust yourself. That you are more than everything.
Love, Cherrin.
I salute people that borned confidence, under my not-too-low investigation, they are practically exist. People need confidence to face their future and they have to conquer their fear. In the annals of my life, I have never tend to conquer my fears.
And then one day when I'm surfing on YouTube, I found out the video bubz just posted, What does Confidence mean to you? If you think about it, Confidence is important. You need confidence to do well in a work interview, you need confidence to meet new people, you need confidence to perform your highest potential in anything you do. And I know that everyone has their self conscious on how well they perform themselves in life or what other people around thinks about you. As for that, I think you will just have to ignore what people thinks about you, like saying you're not beautiful enough, your clothes ain't presentable enough or something. That were their thoughts, I would considered they are using words to influence me just because THEY don't have enough confidence, I fear when I heard them saying. I met peoples like this, they like to talk about thing that irrelevant with what I'm doing to reckless my mind, but I don't understand why they just can't see things more optimistic. They should have review the failure themselves.
In the video, she apocalypse that there are some quick methods on how to be confidence but as well they are not permanent. You can give yourself a makeover, wear nice clothes and improve your posture. They will all help to make you FEEL confident but only to a certain extent.
She was like decimate the negative thoughts in our mind, well in my circumstances, she does in the distinctive way, though she gives a lot of beauty tutorial but she always mention about how perfect was her imperfection, well that's the origin of her confidence, probably.
Some commentary mention that because she's beautiful enough, I think that she's the mentor who gives revelation for everyone to becoming more beautiful, but those imposter just trying to evolve controversy. She also having another comedy channel, I'm sure she's a spacious and well-lit everyday girl. I'm gaily that I subscribed her. =D I think that's the reason she has not much obstruction among her,its because she neglect her imperfection. She has enlightened me, I no need a divine to foresee my future.
"Being Confident will take time because it just doesn't happen over night. Some think that in order to be confident, you must be successful in some type of field (appearance, career, education, talent etc) first. Is this really true? Nope. I don't think anybody can FULLY be confident in everything in life. This is because we are going to be in difficult situations throughout life. However, being able to overcome them is what strengthens us."
Despite how people thinks of you, trust yourself. That you are more than everything.
Love, Cherrin.
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